Got my ipod back, the headphone jack is a bit broken...so break my ipod and give it back when it barely works. Thanks.
His perception of love was wrong...possessive. Jealousy consumed all his emotions. This is not just to other people, but it was everything (school, career, family, traveling, recreation...) His way to keep me around was through manipulation and put downs, "you will never find anyone that will love you as much as I do", "your family doesn't care about you, if they did, they wouldn't have left you here", and my all time favorite, "I stayed in CA even thought my family really needs me just to be here with you". I just wish I didn't put up with it for so long. Although I would have liked to avoided the event in the end, but it was the last straw, and it gave me strength to leave him (in a way I am a bit thankful for it). It's been almost four weeks since last point of any contact, where is he? Still here, just as I predicted. According to his friend, they convinced him to stay. So why is he still here. (this is my side of the story)
So glad to be single right now, will stay this way for a long while...it's bad to jump back into a relationship right away. Need to have 100% focus on my life and what I want right now. Need to explore and meet different types of people to see who I would be compatible with. Love is really just a fancy word for coexistence, who can you coexist with for the rest of your life and still able to be happy.
it is unfortunate that misery is what sometimes drives to to happiness. but the main point is that, that shit is OVER now and you are a stronger more independent and beautiful woman then when you first got into that rut. and you cannot state it any better, love is coexistence :)
ReplyDeletei<3 you by the way!