Finally Happened!

We finally moved into our new place! Now I am just excited to unpack and move on with my life. Huntington Beach wetlands here I come!!!!

I couldn't believe how small my old place looked with all the furniture gone. It really brought me back to the beginning when we first moved in. Surprisingly I didn't get upset moving the stuff out, but it happened so fast and there were so many people there helping me. He made me a really nice painting of a rose, I wanted to keep it because it was pretty but I had to get rid of it because of what it stood for. Thinking back on it, I can't blame him for hating me so much because he tried really hard to get me back and I did not give him any chance at all. How do you forgive someone that hit you, bruise you, and emotionally abuse you? I couldn't do it. I miss the good times but the bad times overpowered the good times. It is amazing to me how a relationship with one person can contain soooooo sooo sooo much love and sooooo soooo soooooo much hate at the same time. The emotions attached to the relationship has become explosive and extreme...therefore no longer healthy. Resentment will always be there no matter what. From this day on he still doesn't get it, he thinks he's got it figured out but he still doesn't get me...after 3.5 years of me telling you what I want, and you still can't figure it out, that is a waste of my time. All I wanted was freedom because in the end I do what I want anyways, who do you think you are trying to manipulate and guilt trip me.