I cannot believe myself

It's like I took 10 steps forward and then 9 steps back. This process getting more and more complicated. Being occupoed with school made me think much more clear headed than ever and now that school is over I am really starting to lose it, maybe it's just because of the moving that is getting to me, but either way my brain is trying to seek comfort and right now I'm looking at the wrong place for it. I miss having a better half.