Lost my Brain at Together As One

The first week of 2010 has been tough. We are still in the process of moving but have not been able to complete the process due to technical difficulties. This limbo between new place and old place has really got my emotions on edge. My sense of logic has completely gone out the window and I relapsed and went to see him. The strange familiarity gave me such an extreme amount of instant comfort, I became addicted. Packing up the last of the things at the apartment instantly brings me back to the beginning of our relationship, the fairytale relationship that I wanted for the rest of my life, the relationship that I tried so hard to keep but just did not work out. Going to see him was a huge mistake and made me lose sight as to why I left him. The recovery from New Years Eve is throwing me off and my sense of logic is practically nonexistent, I am counting for this hangover to be over soon so I can think with a clear head once again. I know for a fact that I don't want to be with him, he is not what I want, he cannot give me what I want, and that I despise him for the pain he put me through. Right now I am just looking for comfort in someone and that can be so dangerous. I just need to recover from new years and get my brain back into place, move, unpack, go back to Hong Kong, relax, come back and be refreshed and be ready to take life on once again.